I’ve been thinking about everything I am and everything I want to be and everything I am not.
I’m not essential to anything in any way and no one in this world truly is, it’s hubris to think otherwise.
But for some reason I have this need to be needed, I’m just that selfish.
The more I need it, the more impossible it seems that everyone feels the same way.
At least, everyone else is able to live their lives without consequence.
So tell me world, what is it you’re doing that lets you feel like you aren’t totally alone or about to be left behind?
Is it wrong to think that being singular and silent and solitary is the only option left for me? Is it wrong to feel that it shouldn’t?
Because I’m alive and being by myself doesn’t feel much like living.